Of Endings And New Beginnings

Wow, there really is a lot of tumbleweed going on on this blog… But I’ve now cleared it from all the dust and spider webs and am fully back to Blog World. I know, I already promised this a while ago, but as you all will read shortly, there’s been all and nothing happening in my life lately.

First things first! Speaking of spider webs and the such – I think I killed the most gigantic spider in the history of our bathroom last night! When all I wanted was just a little late-night wee… Usually, my weapon of preference is the good old vacuum. It’s clean, doesn’t leave any marks, I don’t feel like I’m killing something (I can’t say for sure that it’s painless, right?), it’s gone for sure. The only drawback of using the vacuum is its sound. And because it was way past midnight and I’m not the only person living in this building, I didn’t dare sparking off a fight with the other people here. So I magazined it… (I took a magazine and smashed it) Believe me or not, it was still alive when it landed on the floor – that proves the massiveness of that beast!

But then, this is not a post on how to kill a spider after midnight (don’t feed it, don’t get it wet 😉 ). One reason why I didn’t post anything for this long is because I was preoccupied with my finals. All in all, I passed some, I failed some, and in the end, I don’t really care anymore because I dropped out of university. I figured that I wasn’t so much of a uni person and I wanted to live my creativity. “Why did she even take the finals, then?”, you might ask yourself? Simple as that, I wanted the credit points – just in case if I ever decide to go back and finish my degree. Not very likely, but you never know, right?

Another thing that kept me from writing was not so much a pleasure as studying was.   If you ever had your heart ripped out of your chest, it being bashed onto the floor, stomped on it and then shredded it into tiny little pieces, you can already guess what happened. That was the short version of a chapter in my life that I do not want to ever read again. Fact is, yes, after such a long time (I tried to prevent myself from it because in my book that is called life, this never ended well) I fell in love. With someone I didn’t intend to do so cause it was one of those fun and casual stories. Anyways, he told me that he thinks we shared a connection  and I was someone he really cares for blahblah … That’s it. “Okay”, you might think, “things happen”. I’d use the exact same words, wasn’t this all communicated through a text message. Seriously? That’s how far mankind got? I mean, even if you live far away from each other, there’s always another way to come round this…
I am not at all a person who shouts out loud thins like these and I like to keep my privacy to myself, without letting all the world know. Also, this is in no means meant in a bad way and I don’t want to wear anybody down. Not at all – I think it’s everyone’s own decision how to communicate things, but the whole matter made me think about our society for a while…

Last but not least, I was very much drawn into reading these past three or so weeks. As you can see on the tab above, I took the 50 Book Pledge this year and I’ve got a whole lot to catch up! So all I was doing lately was reading. And the occasional watching TV and drawing.

So that was a lot of explaining, but I promise (again) that I’ll give you all the updates on the juicy (and not so much) stories I encounter. And this time, I hope to keep my promise! 😉

“This is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!”
– C. JoyBelle C.

Happy pre-exam weeks!

Shame on me – I’ve been a virtual stranger lately. Tumbleweed has already taken up this blog, it seems. As you will read shortly, there are some (very lame, I’ve to admit) reasons for the absence of my usually energetic and creative typing. As for now, I decided to light a tiny little candle on this page. I dare not be too vigorous and switch on all the lights because I might as well be absent for another few weeks or so. Oh metaphors, how very entertaining you are!

So this is the main reason for my being absent for this long: It’s this time of the year again when so many of those surrounding me are going slightly nuts – myself included in this sad little (or not so little) group. Why? Exams are just around the corner, waiting for us to silently despair. In fact, not only students are suffering from deep-rooted dark circles around the eyes, caffeine overdose, and sleep deprivation, just to name a few side-effects. There are also lots of people going through professional training and stuff right now and all those exams and final papers usually are due some time before the big summer break starts. Can’t wait for this last day of school to finally hit me! Also, as you might have read in one of my previous posts, I’m so fed-up with school – I can’t wait to get outta there and finally be a productive worker again and do what I love.

Actually, I should be studying for my upcoming exams right now. Well, no, I wasn’t quite honest with you on that… There’s an essay waiting for me, longing to get proofread, and the presentation for Monday won’t magically prepare all by itself. Oh, I totally forgot about those summaries whose word files mysteriously remained empty (unless you want to include the headline and title as being part of the summary? not so much, eh?). And once I’m done with the essay, the presentation, and all the summaries, I can eventually start studying for the finals. I hope I’ll get there before Sunday, cause every day wasted on something else is a day lost on my exam prep, right? Damn right!

Now this is what I did so far:

• I managed to write my handout for the presentation on Monday and sent it out to my class.
• I checked my email account as well as my Facebook like a hundred times. Oh, just realized that I totally forgot about Twitter…
• I just found the most awesome recipe for Strawberry Margarita Jell-O Shots! This is like the most awesome thing ever!! I got so ecstatic over this, I just have to share this moment with you, my dearest reader. Once I move into my new apartment, I’ll totally throw a housewarming BBQ and those little fellas will be THE stars of the night! Little decorating lime triangles included.
• I wrote a to-do list for all the stuff I need to finish this weekend and then ticked off number one: Write handout for presentation on Monday & send it to class.
• Then I decided to check on my blog and write a new post. And here we are…!

Other than the odd “crap, time’s running up” situations, nothing really has happened lately. I’m still looking for an apartment or a room in a shared unit. So if you are looking as well or if you happen to know somebody who’s looking or, you know… Tell me! Actually, I’m not actively looking right now because there’s just so much other stuff to deal with. What was that saying again? There’s no time like the near future? Yeah, that must be it…! 😉
Duh, just realized my life’s become so terribly boring lately. There has to be an end to this soon! (this was a promise, hah!) Also, I’m way behind my reading list (and some reviews) and I most definitely have to work on that soon again. Another promise.

I guess this is it for today, my dear reader. You found out why I’ve been so atypically absent from this page and I promise (uh, another one!) I will get things going again. After a nice little nap.

xoxo